For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. This is a basic law of physics and it applies to our emotional and physical health as well.
What we strive for is to live in balance in our life, but we don't always have control over the emotional upsets we endure, especially when they are unexpected.
Now I have returned to balance and I feel as I am back to my ususal self, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I have not accomplished this on my own, as none of us live in a vacuum. I have had tremendous support from Patty, from my friends in our community, and from the intentional community from which I have been accepted and drawn strength.
I awoke a week before today in a sense of peace that I have not had since my mother's discovery of
who I am. Several events have contributed to this since I last shared with everyone what has been happening. Most important was Patty's talks with my Mom, the phone conversation my mama and I had when I was at work feeling my lowest, and finally just visiting with mama and dad. Even though they aren't ready to see me and talk to me, as I am, I do know it is a process and it takes time. I'm confident it will only get better with them.
It's time to take a while and reflect on what has been gained in this process and how to accomplish the last part of my pre GRS journey; to plan for my transition at work. Somehow, I can't believe it could be more stressful than my parent's accidental discovery of me, but then again, I've lived long enough to "never say never".
But I know to trust the process, that my own fear is my greatest impediment and let this last event to unfold and it will be ok......